35 and a lot to show for it.

Hello. 

It’s been weeks since I celebrated my birthday. Frankly, things have been good, really good. 

And I’m really happy to tell you that somehow, I’m getting back into my old groove at work. Meaning, my old efficiency is slowly coming back. While I am being careful with my words–after all, anything can happen–but I’m taking things a day at a time. Baby steps are important, too. 

I’ve never told anyone before–I got myself into trouble at work. Let’s put it this way–I wasn’t in a good place mentally and emotionally, and it’s affected a lot of things. So bad that my boss felt she had to do something. The experience was a good help, if I may say so. The best bit is that I also have someone to help me out now, so my tasks have been halved. 

And I digress.

So, how was my birthday? It went really well. I got to spend the day with my mum all to myself—which is already a treat. We went to the National Museum, a place I haven’t visited since I was in grade school. Yes, that long. We had a capital time exploring the museum. Then we headed to the bookshop to buy the books I’ve always wanted to buy since they were released. Unfortunately, only one of the two was available, so I ended up buying just one. But at least I got it! Yay.

For some reason, this painting is my favourite among the exhibits. Painted by Juan Luna, one of the agents for freedom of the Philippines, he has painted many works of art, the most famous among them is the Spolarium.
The Spolarium is Juan Luna’s famous work, painted during the Philippine revolution during the later part of the 19th century . The painting, which pictured dead gladiators and the crowds, embodied the abuse of the Spanish regime in the Philippines, as well as the corruption of its government officials and the Church.

Before my birthday, I was worried about a lot of things. That at my age, I totally have nothing to show for. 35, and nothing to show for it. Then I realised, I’ve got a lot to be thankful about. I still have a job. That somehow, I am slowly getting back to my old efficiency. I am grateful that I have a loving and supportive family. I am thankful that I have friends who really love me. And that they’re there for me, even if there’s nothing in  it for them. In short, I am thankful to have real friends. 

And I am thankful to work with a group that wants to make a difference in the lives of children who have no access to books and reading. There’s some hiccups, but I love working with that group. My hope for The Friday Book Club is that we expand and that we have more dedicated people for our cause. I want this group to grow, to have more opportunities to read it forward.

I have thought all of these things during while commuting on my way home from work. While on the surface, I may not have achieved a lot—after all, I am not yet a lawyer, I haven’t achieved a lot of my big dreams. But I am also reminded that a little bit goes a long way. I don’t have to be someone big. I don’t have to do something superhuman. 

Because like I said, baby steps are important. 

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